I think this blog has run its course. I thought the constant writing down of my feelings would help, but I think it’s actually keeping me sad. I don’t want to be sad anymore.
I just want to move on and forget that any of this happened. I still think about Jude every day (gag!) and think about contacting him and know it’s in my best interests not to. I don’t want to dwell on the negative things, although that’s mostly what pops into my head, because he isn’t a bad person, just a bad influence on me.
Anyway, so this will be my last post for a long time, if not forever. I’ll keep following along with the blogs I’ve discovered since I started this blog, I just won’t have anything new to say here.
I will recover and move on and in time I’ll meet someone new and forget that I even knew Jude. Or maybe I’ll get to a point where I’ll stop thinking about him constantly and he and I can be friends again. Whatever happens will be for the best.
Take care and see you out there in blog world. 
I just spoke with my therapist over the phone today, and she mentioned a book called “People of the Lie.” I guess it’s all about “evil” people that therapists are usually unable to help. Guess who fits the description almost exactly?
You should start another blog with a different theme. It’s nice to keep blog friends.
I have another blog. It’s about my travels and whatnot. However, I don’t use fake names, so you’ll have to keep mum about the existence of this blog, because “Jude” reads it. At least he used to…
http://beckyb26.wordpress.com/
Ahh…I will check it out and keep my mouth shut.
Your other blog is AWESOME.
You might want to read the book, Safe People. I think you might like it.
Thanks! I’ll check out that book….though now I think I know what kind of people to avoid.
Good luck with that. Focusing on positive things is the best road to being happy.
booooooooo =(